I bought myself something nice yesterday.
If you recall, my mother had purchased me a gift card to buy maternity clothes with. When that failed, she told me to buy something nice for myself. I bought some new non-pregnant lady clothes.
Yesterday I felt lost. I wanted to commemorate Lily in a way that was personal to me.
I stumbled into the BonTon jewelry section. Not entirely sure what I was looking for, possibly something symbolic like a lily or a diamond (her birthstone), but really just looking for something that spoke to me.
After a bit of searching I found these beauties:
Something about it just felt right. I don’t know what it is, but I’m wearing them religiously and they bring me so much peace.
After I left the store I immediately put them in.
Shortly thereafter, one of them fell. I was heartbroken.
That’s an omen if ever there was one.
Luckily, after looking at the seemingly broken earring, I discovered that the dangly, hummingbird portion was held onto the post by a loop that had gotten bent. I was able to bend it back into shape and now my earrings are flawless.
Handcrafted and one of a kind. Just like my Lily 🙂
In other news.
I’m starting this:
The Capture Your Grief Project
Head to the link to see the brilliance for yourself.
Every day I find myself getting further and further from my devastation. I’ll never leave Lily behind completely, but it’s good to feel closure.
I’m not going to follow this project too closely, but the ones that speak to me will be done. It seems meaningful and will provide me with an outlet and memories of my little girl.